I am sorry, Mama.

I have been trying to understand grief for a while now. What it looks like, what it feels like, what to expect, what to do… but I have come to find out that grief, in its entirety, is a completely personal journey that looks, tastes, and feels different to everyone. Grief is not some perfectly…

Stubborn Love

Wednesday, June 13th, 2018 I had heard “Stubborn Love” by The Lumineers before and I liked it. A LOT. But for some reason, when it came on Pandora’s Alabama Shakes Radio this specific afternoon, it stopped me in my tracks. I immediately got tears in my eyes and a heaviness in my heart. I wasn’t…

“I Have Cancer”

Saturday, February 7th, 2015 I woke up to a loud banging on the back hallway door. I quickly sat up, slightly confused and still completely intoxicated, on my couch. It was 9:30 am on a Saturday. Whoever this person was should have known that it was quite early for a bartender… who likes to party…

“I Found a Lump”

Thursday, November 27th, 2014 Thanksgiving. This holiday is tied with Christmas as my favorite. And why wouldn’t it be? It’s comprised of my favorite things: Fall weather replete with crispy, warm-hued leaves; a cool, gentle air, often accompanied by grey skies that instill a sense of calm; The full roster of my favorite humans, both…