Happy Birthday, Mama.

Happy Birthday, Mama. I remember and honor your wishes, Mama; that my siblings and I would be close and get along in your absence and for you to live on in Cannon Beach by having your ashes spread in the Pacific Ocean by Haystack Rock. I remember the day you were told that the cancer…

#TeamMamaWisth

When my dear friend and founder of Savage Support, Deanna Savage, reached out and asked me, “Would you be interested in writing about your Mom in our annual report?” I cried. I cried tears of joy and appreciation. What a wonderful opportunity to write about my most favorite person for such a dynamic organization. I…

“I would die if you die.”

“I would die if you die,” is something I would tell my mom throughout my life. I could not (and still cannot) imagine my life without her. I truly believed that I would die if she died as the idea of her forever absence in my life would honestly tear a hole in my heart…

In humor we cope

My mom has the best laugh. It is a big, loud, robust cackle that comes from her huge heart and beautiful soul. It is a laugh that turns heads, brings joy, and causes others to laugh even when they have no idea what it is she’s laughing about. She also has the saddest cry. Just…

Can you hear me now?

Picture It: Tuesday, February 24, 2015. We were just leaving Froedert Cancer Center after my mom’s first appointment since breast cancer diagnosis. Mama Wisth: “(Turns to my sister, Lisa, and me) So girls, what do you think?” Me: “I’m going to go first here, if that’s okay? I don’t believe this is the end but…

Spiritual Sundae

I had a Peanut Buster Parfait this past weekend. I am not only telling you this because I am trying to alleviate the guilt I “should” have (I am 99% reserved to being gluten and dairy and refined sugar-free) but because I cried while I ate it (and NOT because I am 99% reserved to…

I am sorry, Mama.

I have been trying to understand grief for a while now. What it looks like, what it feels like, what to expect, what to do… but I have come to find out that grief, in its entirety, is a completely personal journey that looks, tastes, and feels different to everyone. Grief is not some perfectly…

Stubborn Love

Wednesday, June 13th, 2018 I had heard “Stubborn Love” by The Lumineers before and I liked it. A LOT. But for some reason, when it came on Pandora’s Alabama Shakes Radio this specific afternoon, it stopped me in my tracks. I immediately got tears in my eyes and a heaviness in my heart. I wasn’t…

“I Have Cancer”

Saturday, February 7th, 2015 I woke up to a loud banging on the back hallway door. I quickly sat up, slightly confused and still completely intoxicated, on my couch. It was 9:30 am on a Saturday. Whoever this person was should have known that it was quite early for a bartender… who likes to party…

“I Found a Lump”

Thursday, November 27th, 2014 Thanksgiving. This holiday is tied with Christmas as my favorite. And why wouldn’t it be? It’s comprised of my favorite things: Fall weather replete with crispy, warm-hued leaves; a cool, gentle air, often accompanied by grey skies that instill a sense of calm; The full roster of my favorite humans, both…